‘I Just Don’t Want the World to Know’

Prince Harry is opening up about the process of writing his memoirs – and revealing he left some stories about his brother Prince William and father King Charles III.

In a new interview with The Telegraph’s Bryony Gordon, released on Friday, the Duke of Sussex said the first draft of his 400-book Spare was 800 pages. “It could be two books, put it that way,” he explained. “And the hard part was getting the stuff out.”

While some stories were ruled out due to space, Prince Harry also said he gave a lot of material to his ghostwriter JR Moehringer for context, but “absolutely no way” it would be in the finished product.

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“Because on the scale of things that I could include about family members, there were some things that — look, anything that I’m going to include about any of my family members, I’m going to go in the trash,” he said. “I knew that going into it. But it’s impossible to tell my story without them in it because they play such an important role in it. And also because you have to understand the characters and the personalities of everyone within the book.”

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He continued, “But there are some things that have happened, especially between me and my brother, and to some extent between me and my father, that I just don’t want the world to know about. Because I don’t think I’ll ever forgive them. Now you could argue that some of the things I put in there, well, they’ll never forgive me anyway. But the way I see it, I’m willing to forgive you for everything you’ve done, and I’d like you to sit down with me, properly, and instead of saying I’m delusional and paranoid, actually sit down and have a proper conversation about this, because what I’d really like is some accountability.”

“And an apology to my wife,” he added of Meghan Markle.

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Prince Harry, 38, said in his interview with ITV’s Tom Bradby that he still believes in the monarchy and told The Telegraph that his memoirs were not trying to bring down the institution.

“It’s not about trying to bring down the monarchy, it’s about saving them from themselves,” he said. “And I know I’m going to be crucified by a lot of people for saying that.”

When asked if the criticism is worth it, he says: “I feel like this is my mission in life, to right the wrongs of the thing that kicked us out. Because it took my mother, it took Caroline Flack, who was my girlfriend. , and he almost took my wife. And if that’s not a good enough reason to use pain and turn it into purpose, I don’t know what is.”

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On Friday, Gordon shared a photo on Instagram from her date with Prince Harry.

“I went to Montecito for an afternoon last week to talk to my old friend Prince Harry about Spare,” she wrote. “We talked therapy, magical thinking, grief and the freedom that comes from finally finding your voice.”

Prince Harry previously opened up to Gordon about seeking therapy for grief and anxiety in 2017. “My experience is that once you start talking about it, you realize you’re actually part of a pretty big club,” he said. he in a podcast interview.

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In his exclusive interview with PEOPLE, on newsstands now, Prince Harry talked about what he hopes his family will take away from the memories.

“I don’t want to tell anyone what to think about this and that includes my family,” he said. “This book and its truths are in many ways a continuation of my own mental health journey. It’s a raw account of my life—the good, the bad, and everything in between.”